Still Waiting ...

29th April, Rainy

Still waiting for Lil Nigel to Arrive to this Big Big World.. A lot of False alarm as usual. Like yesterday night, I had contractions for 2 hours but stopped. This morning, woken up by contractions at 830, 4 mins apart. It was really painful, I wanted to cry. Shawn wanted to send me in, but I got a feeling tat it's another false alarm. True enough, after a nice warm bath, a little walk, the contractions stop at 12pm. Sighz. But I still have little contractions here and there. Also, when I walk a little, I will have little poo poo feeling.

Lil Nigel, When are you coming? Daddy and Mummy is waiting. Your grandmum, grandpa, aunties, uncles are all waiting !! Your Niu Niu is waiting to play with you. You are giving Daddy a heartattack, Poor Daddy can't sleep at night and kept waking up to make sure Mummy is ok. Poor Daddy have to go to work the next day. Don't be afraid, Mummy and Daddy is here.

Waiting Game ...

27th April, Mon, Finally it's less Humid !

Today is my 37 weeks 6 days Appt. Did another CTG scan. Nigel surprisely was pretty quiet during the scan. Prof Mary did an internal check, still 1cm dilated but Nigel is very low now. She's surprised that I haven't deliver yet ! I myself is surprised too. Prof Mary told me might have to induce if I still haven't deliver next week. That's the irony of the whole thing. Been trying to keep him inside me for 8 mths. Now it's time to come out, Nigel doesn't want to come out. Prof Mary advice me to go for walks and if the pain is unbearable to come in even if the contractions is not regular.

Been having contractions also since 6am in the morning. I'm still having contractions still. But the frequently is pretty far apart still. Called NUH labour ward, the midwife told me if I cannot tahan I can come in for epidural. And also since it's my 1st baby, it will take a pretty long time before I'm ready to deliver. So I decided to go for a walk, have a nice dinner and watch a movie at Vivo City. I'm Home now. Still having contractions but pretty far apart. So now it's all a waiting game..

Anyway a piece of bad news, there is flu outbreak related to Piggies at USA, only one day but affected thousands of people. Singapore might also be affected. Really make me worried abt Nigel. Wat if it's another SARS type of thing?

Sleepy Niu Niu is 2 weeks Old !

Niu Niu is 2 weeks old !! He's one fat and lazy puppy! He can really sleep!

Xuan and Niu Niu (12 days)

Pig Trotters Part 3 ! Lil Nigel Crying Wolf AgAiN!

25th April, Hot and Humid

WAH !! My feet has swell alot suddenly. My skin is so stretched and itchy ! The skin between my toes have cracked. Old Wives tales claim that once the feet have swell up and gone down 3 times, the baby will arrive soon. Hope that's true. This is the 3rd time liaoz.

Contractions is still plaguing me daily. Yesterday was very very painful. Started at 4am, woken up by Niu Niu's crying. Was 4 to 5 mins apart. I couldn't sleep so tried to take a nice long cold bath. Walked around the house. But somehow I know it's another false alarm so I didn't wake Shawn up. But he got woken up by all the noise I was making at 5am. Somehow managed to fall asleep at 7am. Woke up at 11am. The contractions was irregular by then. Sighz. Luckily didn't waste $$ and checked in to labour ward. Otherwise another $200 wasted.

Nigel really like to cry wolf.. Sighz. Giving Mummy and Daddy a lot of headache. When are you coming, my Lil Nigel ?

Eyes Wide Open ! Niu is 12 days old !

Sleepyhead ! (12 Days Old)

Niu Niu Open his Big Big Eyes.. (12 Days Old)






Xuan & Niu, Sleeping in in exactly the same pose !
Niu is 9 days old

Xuan and Niu (12 Days Old)

Niu Niu finally open his eyes when he's 11 days old. He became really whiny after that !!. Always want his mummy to sleep with him or near him ! Sometimes i have to help Xuan babysit so she can have some R & R ! His eyes are really special, look really human !

Frustrations ! 37 weeks Gynae Visit ......

21st April, Hot...

I have been having contractions all the time still. The pain is getting more intense. But yet, still nothing. Bleeding a little tiny bit on and off. Brown discharge also. My mum, dad, sis and Shawn all advice me to go for C-section. Safer if Nigel is out. Also will be a big relief for me. My family is all very worried as my kind of pain is not normal.

At the gynae visit, Prof Mary checked my cervix, only 1cm dilated despite all the contractions. And she doesn't encourage me to go for c-section. She will only perform the operation if the Baby is in distress ! But I'm in distress and soon because of it, Baby will be in distress !! And Shawn agree with her ! Plus there's nothing I can do about the contractions cos cannot take any medications. She says need to wait till contractions are more intense and closer then I can admit to labour ward. I told her mine normally start very intense, 5 mins apart more than one hour but will slowly become further. She says have to wait from 5 mins to 3 mins then admit myself. She thinks mine will be a long labour. And I have a feeling that I will be overdue and need to induce anyway !! Which I will rather opt for C-section than induction !!

I'm so upset that I cried all the way home ! and was still crying at home. And I feel like crying while typing this entry. If this goes on, I think I will get PNBs. Why do most women have smooth, normal pregnancy? And I have to suffer like this. Already lost one baby, went thru so much to keep Nigel safe and now, THIS !! I wonder what did I do in my past life ! The only good thing I can think of is the birth of Lil Niu Niu, if not for the little boy to distract me, I will be even more upset and depressed.... Niu Niu is really a lil miracle.

Niu Niu is 8 days old !

Niu Niu fell asleep Drinking Milk Milk ! So cute !! (7 days old)

Niu Niu Orr Orring (7 Days Old)

Niu Niu Sleeping with his tougue sticking out !! (7 days Old)

False Labour AgAin !!

19th April, Hot & Stuffy !!

I had "show" yesterday at 6pm. 3 blood clots like thingy, size of 10 cents coins. I thought tat's it, going to labour soon. I had contractions shortly after. It was really painful so I didn't time. But sad to say, it slowly became less intense and less frequent !! It stopped at 12am. Another False Alarm !! Had contractions this morning also but it stop again.. after 1 hr. Sighz..

Didn't have proper sleep for more than 4 days. Slept only at 8am today and woke up at 11am. Sighz. Wonder how long i can take it..

Baby Nigel's Lil Guardian Angel is 6 Days Old

Poor Xuan, No fur liaoz. SobS... Niu Niu fell asleep drinking milk as usual ~~

Niu Niu fell asleep drinking milk as usual. So Cute !

Lil Niu Niu aka Fortune Kitty

More Stretch Marks ! Another false Alarm ??

Just took the photos yesterday at 36 weeks 2 days. Stretch Marks getting worst ! Sobs

17th April, Hot !

Been having contractions on and off whole day ! Worst one was in the morning around 830am, 5 mins apart for more than an hour. Drink some warm water and took a nap. Felt better. Contractions became irregular but still painful. Felt worst again around 7pm, took another nap. Woke up at 9pm and it's more painful. It's painful all the time so no idea how I'm going to time the contractions. It's still painful now while I'm typing this entry. Hope this time is not another false alarm.

36 weeks Visit & Wondering....

15th April

Finally!! 36 weeks!! Safe Zone at last. Prof Rauff is finally back too !

Shawn and Moi went for 36 weeks Doctor's visit yesterday. I had a bit of bleeding today too. Nigel's head is lodged but not totally engaged yet. Everytime seems well. Also, I have to stop my medications. If he wants to see the Big Big World now, it's safe. I do want him to come asap as I will feel a lot more at ease with him in my arms than tummy. But yet, It will be better for him to stay in for another week. Also, with Lil Niu Niu arrival, I have to take care of both Niu Niu and Xuan Xuan. So have to endure another week at least.

Yesterday night, couldn't sleep as usual. I sat up on the bed wondering...
*How will Nigel announce his arrival to this Big Big World. With a Big Bang ? Or quietly?
*When will Nigel arrive? Will Nigel be overdue ? Can he come soon ??
*Is Nigel too comfy inside and doesn't wan to come out?
*Will Nigel be safe? Will he be healthy?
*Will I be a good Mum?
*Will I have enough Breast Milk?
*Will Nigel be happy?
*Will I be able to cope?
*Will I have time for him when I start work?

So many things to wonder about. Sighz...

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Watermelon Blanketie

Watermelon Safetly Blanketie from Vonjoy. Reversible. Helps to prevent cot death.

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Toys !!

From JohnLittle Warehouse Sales.

From Various Warehouse sales. All below $6 !!

Baby Nigel's Lil Guardian Angel

Niu Niu 4 days old. He has a white spot on his back which is exactly at the same place as Xuan.

Sleepy Xuan and Niu Niu (4 days old). In the midst of triming her fur.

Niu Niu (4 days old)

Niu and Happy Mum (3 days old)

Niu Niu (1 day old)

Niu Niu 1 day old

I was awoken by Shawn on 11th April at 9am with a big Surprise ! My 8, turning 9 year old Xuan just gave birth to 2 Lil Boys! But the 1st born which was the bigger puppy was born dead. Leaving only his lil much smaller brother.

It's really a Big Surprise as I had been trying to mate Xuan since she was 2 years old. But nothing.. Plus she don't look pregnant at all !!! Sighz. I always wanted to have puppies from her. Now after giving up for 2 years. She have a Lil Boy! My Sis says he's Lil Nigel's guradian angel. I wanted to name him Xing, but my sis want that name for her Lil Buns. So I change it to Niu Niu aka Cow Cow cos he really look like one !

After all the surprise, the reality sets in. Xuan is too old to have a puppy. I was afraid of complications. One thing, normally there is 3 pups or more per litter. I was afraid that there might be a pup left in the womb and she's too tired to deliver the last puppy. Plus she's been panting a lot. Luckily Meiying and her hubby came over yesterday to check on her. She's fine. Just that she had engorment. Have to massage her. Panting is due to the heat. I have to slowly cut her fur away. Also Niu Niu is pretty fragile. So I'm worried too. Xuan so far have refuse to move from her bed. She has only pee twice since. Haven't poo yet. Plus she's having the Blues. Niu Niu cry, she will cry. Sighz. Xuan is too parniod. She doesn't seems to know wat Niu Niu wants. Also, Niu Niu is too fussy. He only wants to sleep at a certain position. The 1st 2 days is between Xuan's back legs. Now it's at an Angel of her back leg. Sighz.. Been waking up every few hours to position him correctly or Xuan and Him will just cry and cry. They are like helping me to practice for Nigel's Night Feeds !!

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Stroller

2nd Hand Lucky Baby Stroller, FOC. Meiying, Thank Many Many !!

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Cute Secondhand stuff from Mummy's GodBrother

Cutie Shoes and hats from Lil Nigel's Mummy's GodBrother's kid

Labour Signs?? When is Lil Nigel Coming?

10 April Good Friday, RaInY But Still Hot & Humid

I have been having contractions on and off since Tues. Contractions on Tues was the worst so far. Since then, it's been on and off. Pretty irregular but getting more intense each time. Also, been having more problems sleeping. Due to Lil Nigel being restless, cramps and breathless. Most of the time I have to toss and turn, every position is uncomfortable. Also, despite the frequent rain, it's been hot and humid. Sighz...End up not sleeping or finally slept at 6am. Like today, I ended up sleeping at 6am in a sitting position. I got a feeling he's coming really soon, like next week latest. Also, Been having this wan to poo poo feeling all the time, pelvic is aching a lot, yellowish discharge. My brown discharge have went down a lot too. When Will The D-Day Be?

Present for My Lil Niece/Nephew

Gotten this cute romper for my little Niece/Nephew. My Lil Sister is 8 weeks pregnant now. Another little cow cow.

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Petit Bateau New Born Package

Gotten this new born Package from petit Bateau for newborn for 3 mths and above.

2 Rompers, one hankie, one cute hat. Also Courtesy of Samsung.

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Petit Bateau

Gotten All from Petit Bateau at Taka. All using Taka Voc, courtesy of Samsung.

Lil Nigel will be wearing the Hat and Rabbit Romper home from Hospital.

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Cot Mobile

Cot Mobile from Robinson Sales.

Present from Nigel's Auntie Pam, Auntie Nicole and Uncle Nicholas

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Hamper !!

Hamper from my Dear Godbrother, Vincent. Thanks !!

Nigel's Engaged??

08 April. RaInY

I had contractions yesterday on and off since 4am. Had problem sleeping for the whole night. Managed to catch some sleep at 9am for 2 hours. Woke up with really bad contractions. It was 7 mins apart, each one about 2 mins. Then became 4 mins apart. Decided to take my medications at 1230pm. But didn't help. In the end, had to take the fast reacting medications at 145pm. I hate the fast reacting ones as I will vomit, feel breathless.. But no choice ma. Contractions didn't really stop but became futher apart. I was too tired to time the contractions. My pelvic started to ache a lot. Been having this wanting to poo poo feeling also since 07 April also. Managed to catch a bit of sleep here and here. After dinner time, contractions stop totally. Tummy was so sore. Shawn wanted to bring me to NUH but I refuse to go. Hate that place. I told him unless waterbag broke, otherwise, I'm rather suffer at home. Poor Nigel was awake thru the whole ordeal since 4am. He was very restless. Keep moving around. I think he's going to be engaged. I told him to relax, if have to get engaged, then no choice lor, dun struggle. He calm down after that. Today's he's less active. Maybe due to yesterday. But the sharp pain is worst today. Tummy is so sore. My pig trotters also less swollen today. I think the D-day is coming..

Pig Trotters AgAin ! Nigel's daddy's Job

05 April, Nice and Rainy

My Feet gotten even more swollen since yesterday. I had problems walking. It's starting to hurt more on my left feet. Sometimes, it be purplish in colour. I have been soaking my poor feet in my foot spa 2 times a day now. Hopefully it will get better. My sis and frens says that I might deliver soon. I hope so, but at least 9 days more since my doctor will only be back on the 14th. My contractions are getting more frequent. I had one bad episode yesterday. Luckily after medications, it stop. My mum says I have to start taking coconut water now, 3 times before i deliver. So my baby will be nice and clean, instead of having "dirty" stuff on him when he's born.

Nowsdays, I'm getting more emtional. Been crying over small things. I have a really hard time sleeping. I feel really frustrated and I will just cry. Sighz. Hope I dun get post natal blues. My next appointment with Prof Mary will be on the 14/4. But my hubby can't get off that day. Have to attend some dumb roadshow at Tampiness. Only can get 1 off day that week which is on the 17th. Have to go back to work during his second off day! Hope my hubby is being paid to come back to work during his off day, instead of claiming time off. His dumb company been cutting his pay a lot. OT espically. They dun not want to hire more staff and yet they want my hubby and his frens to work OT and not pay them. Even when claiming OT they have to write the reason. Their OT can be up to 20 over hrs a month! The most my hubby worked is more than a 100 hrs! Plus OT pay out is 1.5 times of their current basic. BY not paying them and claiming time off, it's not worth it at all. And most of the time, they are force to work OT! And for coming back to work during off days, they are paid 2X. Also, my hubby being the only senior in the shop, ( cos all the rest have quited for obvious reasons) he's been given lots of extra duties which will take him away from his sales. And his company commission is not shared like mine but individual. So his commission has dropped a lot. IT SO UNFAIR! He had to train new staff. During which he have little time to do sales. It was ok in the past as the new staff's sales will be given to him in future for about a month. Now His Female shop manager suddenly got into her head that it's unfair to others and rotate instead !! And the damn management been transferring most of the staff my hubby trained and kept giving him new staff to train !! DAMN unfair! I told him he better not train the new staff now, not worth it. Baby Nigel needs the money !! NO MORE MR NICE GUY! Plus he have to write a damn long report after each staff he trained! FOR WHAT! Total waste of time. He also have to do troubleshooting for their modem which have multiple installation issues!! Even on his off days, they kept calling him for help, it's so irritating!! Unlike my company, we seldom have this kind of issue even though we are selling similar items. Also, as shop trainer, have to keep going for dumb time wasting training, so less sales, less pay. Unlike mine, which rotate staff to go or manager themselves will attend. Thought my hubby have assistant trainer but the training team have a dumb policy where the main trainer have to go !! And sometimes he have to go during his off days !! Their training team really sucks. A lot of stupid stuff to do which is a damn waste of time. I was helping him with a few of his projects before since I'm always home, I dun not want him to waste his time during his off days to do stupid time consuming projects which i wonder why the marketing team is not asked to do, plus I was from tat company ! I left because before I know the management sucks big time and it will only get worst, which I was right. It's been 2 yrs since I left and it gotten a lot worst. Been asking my hubby to leave too. But he's in his own comfort zone. Plus money wise, he dun think it's wise to leave now. I hope he will change job after I get back to work in August. Otherwise, Poor Nigel will not be able to see his daddy much.

Back to topic!! Anyway, I was pondering whether I should just go on my own instead of changing my appointment. It's really troublesome and sometimes impossible to change as Prof Mary is really busy. Plus I dun feel good waiting for so long before seeing her given my condition.

Pig Trotters

My Feet are so swollen ! Like Pig trotters !! I started to have water retention very early on. Late 1st trismeter cos of my work. Require me to stand and move ard very often. Feet swell down last week. Suddenly swell again 2 days ago. Sobs... Hard time walking now.. Heard from quite a few people that if your leg swell down and up, meaning ur D-day is near..

Baby Nigel's Stuff - Baby Carrier

Got this Baby Carrier 2nd hand from Motherhood forum at $60. Usual Price is at $168. Very good condition, only used once. Good buy !!

34 weeks At Last !

April Fools ! Hot Hot Hot !!

Finally Nigel is 34 weeks old. A big relief. At least if he wan to see big big world now, he will be safe. Had my check up on Monday. Cervix is still close. Nigel head is down lower. But still not engaged yet. Prof Mary is going on a 2 weeks leave !! Back only on 14th April !! Oh my !! What if Nigel decide to come out then?? I don't trust another doctor. I also asked her regarding water birth. She says I can go for it. She feels it's good for me too. A very good pain relief method. But need to get a doula. But it's pretty costly. So I'm still thinking abt it. Also waiting for the Doula to call me. I contacted Ginny from 4trimester.

I had a baking session today with my 2 sisters and cousin Dee. Before the session start, I had contractions, 4 mins apart! Shawn was worried, he was about to leave for work. I told him to go to work 1st, since my Brother in law is here, he can send me to hospital. But luckily, 2 hrs after taking my medicine, it stopped. Phew ! But tummy is still sore. Back to Baking, at first we thought will turn out bad as it's pretty watery, but was great in the end !