Lil Nigel & Lil Johanna

Monday, March 18, 2013

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Studio Photos of our beautiful Johanna @ 8 days old

A Fren of ours took some beautiful professional newborn photos of Lil Johanna when she was 8 days old. It was a fantastic experience. A great way to keep memories of our Lil Ger!

Visit his website @ www.levinpoh.com

Monday, March 11, 2013

On 21022013, 3pm
I went for my gynae appointment as usual with hubby. Turn out that I was already 3cm dilated! Dr Watt wanted to ward me immediately but I sort of protested and went home to rest and take a nice bath while hubby rushed back to work to finish up.

7.00pm
Went in to the Raffles Hospital's Labour and Delivery ward. A very pleasant place with nice nurses. After the experience I had with Nigel, I decided to go for Epi.

9.00pm
Dr Watt came in to break my water bag... then the waiting begins...

22022013, 1230am
Anxious or maybe bored Dr Watt came bk to hospital to wait for me to be fully dilated. The nurses also commented that Dr Watt must be bored at home. Just as I was about 9cm dilated, I could feel the contractions on the right side of my body. It was really bad! But Dr says it is normal as the Baby's head could be pressing on the nerves. It was pretty fast labour comparing to Nigel. I only push for half an hr and pop! Out she comes! Just a short 5 hours labour comparing to Nigel's 13 hours labour!

3.30am
Comparing to Nigel, my recovery from epi is really long. As I could not move my legs, i could only be transfered to the ward at 330am. I took a 4 bedder thus time so Shawn had to go home. So lonely... But baby Johanna came and accompany me. She took well to breast feeding and suckle really hard. Ouch!

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Friday, January 25, 2013

Preterm Contractions... -_-|||

I have been having preterm contractions since second trimester. It is not as bad as those during Nigel's time but still pretty painful and worrying. Since last week, every time I walk a little, contractions start. Sighs..I have to limit my activity including playing with Nigel. I have been given hormone pills to ease the contractions. My amniotic fluid isn't at the ideal level too. Dr Watt have to really scan hard to find pockets of fluid here and there. So I have to closely monitor Johanna's movement to make sure everything is OK and to see her immediately if any changes. Dr Watt suspected that I might be leaking fluid but so far the test is negative. But I do have patches of fluid few times a day. Today, in addition, I am feeling giddy and seem to be blacking out, i have these episodes for sometime also but today it is extra-bad. Haiz... Johanna, you have to hang on till at least 37 weeks which is another 3 weeks.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Piano Lessons

Nigel has been learning Piano since last Dec. He love Piano and always look forward to his lessons (",)..
Not expecting him to genius but just glad he love it. He will happily greet his teacher and say goodbye to me which was a surprising as he normally stick to me like glue.

Johanna @ 34 weeks

Johanna@34w. 2.2kg. Squashed up but Growing well. Water level lower than previous but still alright. No leakage but have to monitor her movement. Her arm is covering her face but can see her nose.

Swimming #^_^#

Another of Nigel's Hobby, Swimming! I have been trying to teach him to swim since last Oct.. So far So good. He can keep his head underwater.

Cycling!!

Nigel's Latest Hobby! "Cycling" but without petals aka Gliding!! He is really fast on his new bike! This is suppose to teach kids how to balance and they can move on to normal 2 wheel bike instead of training wheels.

At first he had a hard time using the new bike. But after the second time, he is an expert on the bike. Normally we will take the park connector that is just beside our place and go to the park or the beach. He love doing it almost daily! Hard for me to go with him daily given my current state. I get Butt aches everytime I come home.. SobS.. But as long as he is happy.

Nigel love going to the beach via the park connector. He cycle, we walk... -_-'"

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Johanna @ 32 weeks, CraBsSs!

Johanna is finally 32 weeks. She is 1.75kg. Her nose is big!! But Doc says normally nose will appear bigger than it is on the ultrasound. But Doc also commented that her nose is big. Her head and limbs is the size of a baby at 33 weeks plus. But her body is small. So she is going to be long and thin like her brother. I guess I am going to have 10plus stitches delivery her. I got 14 stitches after Nigel's delivery.

She did something cute yesterday. I or rather her, was craving for Black Pepper crabs for 2 days. She was making a big fuss since 830pm. She was moving a lot and really non-stop till I have bad contractions. Shawn came back around 1030. He guess that Johanna wanted her crabs. So he placed his head on my tum tum and tok to her, she was kicking him lightly...When he ask her "Johanna, you wan crab..." before he can continue, she gave him a big big kick on his face! Fierce! So to appease her, we had to get crabs and she is a happy lil girl after that.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Car Washing!

Nigel love helping with household chores. Been keeping him occupied with Lil simple tasks. #^_^#

Latest is car washing!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Johanna @ 29 weeks

I lost some weight and Johanna is not growing well. About a week behind time. Need to eat more and most importantly, less stress.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Lil Johanna and Some thoughts...

@ 25 weeks

@20 weeks

28 weeks finally today. Been having lots of contractions, both painful and painless ones. Pelvic area is having a lot of pressure. But comparing to my pregnancy during Nigel's time, it is a lot easier.

Tonight, I am feeling all alone and really depressed. Somehow, she knows it. While my hand was on my tummy, she placed her hand there right on the spot where my hand is and left it there for a long time as if to comfort me and to tell me that she is there for me. Cos of this, I finally manage to calm down.

I hope I can be a good Mummy to her and Nigel. Things aren't going well at all. At first, I decided that no negative post will be on this blog, but maybe, it is good to let the Kids to know what is happening instead of hiding everything. My world seem to be crumbling. Poor Johanna is suffering with me. I am trying to shield Nigel away from it as much as I could but there are some people just don't understand that. Now I just hope I am strong enough to weather thru it all and deliver Johanna safety. Stress can cause Preterm delivery which I am already in danger of physically minus the Stress and depression. And now with the added Stress and my emotional state of mind, I really do not know how long I can keep her inside. Some people around me doesn't seem to understand that Stress and Problems are bad for pregnant woman especially pregnant woman with complications. Maybe they don't really care whether Johanna is born safe and healthy. Something which I am feeling around me from Day1 of the pregnancy. I am finally trying to think positively for the past 2 weeks for the kids' sake and stop caring about what the world is thinking about me, but I have too much negative emotions around me. Just one issue after another and with people adding fuel to the fire.. I can't do much. Most of the time, I try to keep a smile on my face and not argue, people think I take things lightly and don't seem to care. They don't understand that I am trying not to upset Nigel. He has been thru a lot for his tender age already. When I am sad, he knows and will be sad too. I am really sorry that I could not provide a better environment for the kids to grow up in. I am at a lost of what to do now.. I am really exhausted, tired of planning and when it fails, it is my fault entirely even if the situation is beyond my control, tired of being blamed for everything cos I am tired of explaining and just let everyone think what they want, tired of fighting back and being told I am unreasonable when I just wan the kids to be in a safe and clean environment, tired of being called low EQ cos I shout to stop something dangerous from happening to Nigel, tired of being called unwilling to work when i lose my job and not cos I didn't want to work despite having pregnancy complications and rushing to and fro to take care of everything else, I am now just tired of life in fact. If not for the kids.. SighS.. I agree I am not a capable person, I am not smart, I don't try my best, I am too negative, I complain too much, I have lost my self-confident, I have no directions in life, I have horrible EQ and not likable cos I dun know how to act act, I am too straight forward and stubborn. But it doesn't help that I get lashed at, fingers pointing at me all the time, daggers stabbing on my back when I am trying to get back on my feet. I don't need people to create more problems on top of my problems, being told I am lousy and useless, people creating stories when they don't know what is going on. What I really need now is positivity, encouragement and a big hug. Which thankfully I am getting from Nigel.. for the rest of the world, Is that too much to ask for?

Rose 3 .. 2012

In a blink of an eye, it has been almost a year since Nigel started Pre-school. Nigel's Bestie is Phyllis, the girl in the ponytail sitting in the first row.

Nigel's First School Concert !

Nigel unfortunately refuses to dance on the stage.. SighSs.. But at home while watching the video, he will actually dance and show me and even tell me the names of the steps.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Lil Johanna

@ 6 weeks

@ 8 weeks

Fetal Anomaly Scan @ 12 weeks

@ 16 weeks

Lil Johanna came as a Big Surprise! Mummy suffered horrible morning sickness and even had to be put on drip! Not to mention cramps and spotting. But is better now, except for the occasional cramps.

Dr Watt from Raffles Hospital has tried scanning for gender since 12 weeks but Lil Johanna only want to show us her butt view. At 14 weeks, it was covered by the Cord due to low placenta. At 16 weeks, maybe cos Daddy is finally here to accompany me to the Doc, Johanna behaved and She is a GIRL! Well...most likely anyway, will confirm again during the 20 weeks detailed scan.

Lil Nigel is looking forward to Mei Mei's arrival! He says if DiDi then must exchange.. -_-''