Letters to Nigel

24.10.2010 Sunday

Hiya Nigel,

It's been a really long time since Mummy has written to you. You are fast approaching 18 mths ! Time flies really fast. I was looking thru your baby pictures yesterday and it seems like only yesterday that you came into my life. So many changes since you came. I was really overwhelmed by everything that I have neglected other aspects of my life. But no matter, Mummy and Daddy will always love you no matter what happen.

Mummy Dearest

October ...........

It's been a really long time since I have updated the blog. Overwhelmed with Nigel, work and family.

October normally to me is the best month of the year cos it's my birthday month! But this year, October is positivity the worst month for me. Whatever it is, I have to stay strong for Nigel's sake. But sometimes I do envy those that can go on a frenzy and not care about what people think. But I'm too sane to do that. I wish I am not so strong minded. I wish I could take a chair and hurl it towards the wall. I wish I can scream out loud. I wish I can take a walk in the rain. I wish I can have the courage to quit my job now not caring about anything else....