Car Washing!

Nigel love helping with household chores. Been keeping him occupied with Lil simple tasks. #^_^#

Latest is car washing!

Johanna @ 29 weeks

I lost some weight and Johanna is not growing well. About a week behind time. Need to eat more and most importantly, less stress.

 

Lil Johanna and Some thoughts...

 @ 25 weeks

@20 weeks

 

 

28 weeks finally today. Been having lots of contractions, both painful and painless ones. Pelvic area is having a lot of pressure. But comparing to my pregnancy during Nigel's time, it is a lot easier.

 

Tonight, I am feeling all alone and really depressed. Somehow, she knows it. While my hand was on my tummy, she placed her hand there right on the spot where my hand is and left it there for a long time as if to comfort me and to tell me that she is there for me. Cos of this, I finally manage to calm down. 

 

I hope I can be a good Mummy to her and Nigel. Things aren't going well at all.  At first, I decided that no negative post will be on this blog, but maybe, it is good to let the Kids to know what is happening instead of hiding everything. My world seem to be crumbling. Poor Johanna is suffering with me. I am trying to shield Nigel away from it as much as I could but there are some people just don't understand that. Now I just hope I am strong enough to weather thru it all and deliver Johanna safety. Stress can cause Preterm delivery which I am already in danger of physically minus the Stress and depression. And now with the added Stress and my emotional state of mind, I really do not know how long I can keep her inside. Some people around me doesn't seem to understand that Stress and Problems are bad for pregnant woman especially pregnant woman with complications. Maybe they don't really care whether Johanna is born safe and healthy. Something which I am feeling around me from Day1 of the pregnancy. I am finally trying to think positively for the past 2 weeks for the kids' sake and stop caring about what the world is thinking about me, but I have too much negative emotions around me. Just one issue after another and with people adding fuel to the fire.. I can't do much. Most of the time, I try to keep a smile on my face and not argue, people think I take things lightly and don't seem to care. They don't understand that I am trying not to upset Nigel. He has been thru a lot for his tender age already. When I am sad, he knows and will be sad too. I am really sorry that I could not provide a better environment for the kids to grow up in. I am at a lost of what to do now.. I am really exhausted, tired of planning and when it fails, it is my fault entirely even if the situation is beyond my control, tired of being blamed for everything cos I am tired of explaining and just let everyone think what they want, tired of fighting back and being told I am unreasonable when I just wan the kids to be in a safe and clean environment, tired of being called low EQ cos I shout to stop something dangerous from happening to Nigel, tired of being called unwilling to work when i lose my job and not cos  I didn't want to work despite having pregnancy complications and rushing to and fro to take care of everything else, I am now just tired of life in fact. If not for the kids.. SighS.. I agree I am not a capable person, I am not smart, I don't try my best, I am too negative, I complain too much, I have lost my self-confident, I have no directions in life, I have horrible EQ and not likable cos I dun know how to act act, I am too straight forward and stubborn. But it doesn't help that I get lashed at, fingers pointing at me all the time, daggers stabbing on my back when I am trying to get back on my feet.  I don't need people to create more problems on top of my problems, being told I am lousy and useless, people creating stories when they don't know what is going on. What I really need now is positivity, encouragement and a big hug. Which thankfully I am getting from Nigel.. for the rest of the world, Is that too much to ask for?

Rose 3 .. 2012

In a blink of an eye, it has been almost a year since Nigel started Pre-school. Nigel's Bestie is Phyllis, the girl in the ponytail sitting in the first row.

Nigel's First School Concert !

Nigel unfortunately refuses to dance on the stage.. SighSs.. But at home while watching the video, he will actually dance and show me and even tell me the names of the steps.

Lil Johanna

@ 6 weeks

 

 

 @ 8 weeks

 

 



Fetal Anomaly Scan @ 12 weeks

 

@ 16 weeks

 

 

 

Lil Johanna came as a Big Surprise! Mummy suffered horrible morning sickness and even had to be put on drip! Not to mention cramps and spotting. But is better now, except for the occasional cramps.

 

Dr Watt from Raffles Hospital has tried scanning for gender since 12 weeks but Lil Johanna only want to show us her butt view. At 14 weeks, it was covered by the Cord due to low placenta. At 16 weeks, maybe cos Daddy is finally here to accompany me to the Doc, Johanna behaved and She is a GIRL! Well...most likely anyway, will confirm again during the 20 weeks detailed scan.

 

Lil Nigel is looking forward to Mei Mei's arrival! He says if DiDi then must exchange.. -_-''

 

 

 

Nigel and Mr Monkey!

 

Nigel Cannot sleep without his BFF Mr Monkey !!!

Uncle Desmond's Wedding !

06/06/2012 was Nigel's Uncle Desmond and Aunt Grace Wedding. It is also Nigel's first time as a Page boy! He did a wonderful Job !!

He refuses to take photo with Daddy.. Juz wan to play !

Terrific 3!!

 Cake From Crystal Jade

 Nigel and his ClassMates.

Very Grumpy Lil Boy !



 Goodie Bags for Boys

 Goodie bag for the Gals

 Mickey Mouse all for his ClassMates

 Goodie Bags for his Bus Mates

Pressie & AngBao from GodMum Bear Bear

 Pressie From Auntie Joo, Auntie Ting and Auntie Bin

HongBao from Ah Ma & Ah Gong  !

Good Bye Dearest Copen ...

Good Bye Dearest Copen... Will really miss you. Cos of you, we realise our dream of owning a hard top convertible. Always remember the fun we had cruising down ECP "topless"!! Hope your new owner will have as much fun as we had


Nigel really Love this car. He even sleeptalks about Copen after we sold it. I guess he misses Copen. But we have to make way for a bigger car as Nigel is getting too big for this car and it is dangerous too and against the Law ...... 

First Art and Craft Project in N1 !

Nigel's Very First Art and Craft Project in School !! I suspect it is mainly done by his teachers .....

After 3 weeks of School .....

Surprisingly, after 2 days only, Nigel love taking the school bus but hates School still. But after 1 week, he can't wait to change into his uniform and hop onto the school bus! He keep harassing Grandma to change him into his school uniform and to go downstairs to wait for the school bus !! Nigel is a really good boy. Mummy is so proud of you!

First Day of School @ DaySpring Kindergarten

 School Gears

Not so nice uniform

Name Tag 

Not so nice bag :(

Nice Shoes !! Only white shoes allowed so had to buy one.

Posing in his uniform !

At the School

He was alright till his classmate starting screaming and crying

He stick to his teachers like superglue


Dayspring !!

Daddy Bringing Nigel in to School 

One of the reason why i choose Dayspring cos it is near the Sea !!!

Garden and Pond !!

Big Big playarea !!

One of the indoor play areas

Looking for a suitable school for Nigel is one of my biggest headache.  I wan a school that is

• Non-aircon or partial as Nigel has sensitive nose.
• 2 to 3 hours only
• big playarea

Most of the schools around Sengkang is fully aircon, either half day or full day and really small. The few that really mets my criteria is really costly. Finally after much online searching, I found Dayspring at the parenthood forum. www.dayspring.edu.sg/ . It is located at Punggol 24th ave. It is near the seaside!! Within walking distance. The school is really big too with it's own playground. Downside is the distance but luckily there is school buses. The price wise, it is really afforable too. I went down to the school twice to take a look. Second time was with Nigel. Nigel love the area, is comfortable with the teachers so I sign him up. School starts on 06/01/2012, class start at 12.15 and ends at 215. He is in Class Rose3.

First day of day, we decided to bring Nigel there on our own instead of the school bus to get him settled in first. Nigel was pretty okay during assembly till one boy started screaming and crying. It was then Nigel realized that I am not around and started to cry. His teacher had to carry him before he stops. Overall, he was okay till he saw me peeing at the window and started all over again. I was dragged out of the school by Shawn. Sobs.. Teacher says Nigel is alright but cries when they had to change classrooms. School bus Auntie was there too. Nigel likes her pretty much. So I decided to start him on the school bus on Monday. I hope he survives the ride there !! My mum will bring him up to the bus since he will definitely cry his lungs out if he sees me.. hope he gets settled in really soon and makes some great friends there.